I've never been so alone.
I have no livelihood.
Can't move myself.
Difficult thoughts in the morning at noon in the evening.
Just crying and hurting.
Living alone with God.
Complete conversations.
Dying for love of every kind.
To the touch, to something that will come into my life that will know how to say that everything is fine.
I feel like I've tried everything already.
And nothing calms me down.
And sees well everything there is and is grateful for it.
But alone hurts.
And even when they approach me, I'm alone.
And all I want is to cry alone.
All I have left is a body.
And the soul cries out to heaven
Because I don't have power anymore
Don't want illness, don't need.
I don't want war.
Don't need to understand lessons
The hindsight
Don't want fame and fame
Help others feel good so they forget how bad.
I have no point in anything
Not tasty.
I don't have a pulse to move
I don't have fuel or spare parts
I only want my children
And they're not here with me anymore either
Only the tears are faithful
Only the heart that doesn't feel good
I didn't always get the good
I made the bad look pink
Only the tears are faithful
The soul got tired
I don't feel like starting from scratch
Being surrounded by love
Then go like after a party
May everything be happy and then still.
Prefers silence
Coming home I didn't know
Wasting time here
Like at the stop the bus doesn't arrive and is scary
I have a birthday
I used to love partying with everyone
Today I'm just anxious about what will happen that everyone won't be.
I'll be alone in bed crying again
And in the morning there will be no one to say good morning and no one to talk to or drink coffee with
Just won't be
The sea is just waiting and the tears are faithful
I feel like I'm bothering everyone with my pain
That I deserve it
That I got it because I thought it wasn't good for me
That I hurt and then now I hurt
Tired of trying
Very tired.
Wondering whether to send you
A great shame overwhelms me
What does she have it
She has everything what more she wants
Want rest kisses endlessly
Stop abusing myself with this silence of being alone.
Everyone wants quiet.
Noise is all I have.
And even when there is silence, it kills me from within.
That will take me off my friends list
Just don't write words of encouragement.